After talking with my husband for quite some time, he brought up some great points about friendship. This all stemming from the fact that I don't think I have friends...which I know is ridiculous, and he kindly brought that to my attention. I get in moods where all I can do is wallow in self-pity. I'm such a drama queen.
As I am looking for sincere and open friendships, I find myself continually putting up walls to protect myself. For some reason, I'm easily hurt. As I look into my past, I find it hard to trust anyone for the simple fact that no one has ever been trustworthy (besides my husband). Maybe some have been trustworthy, I've just been so guarded that I wouldn't know or give them the chance to be trusted. Ah, either way...I confess that I have overlooked and ignored great friends in my life right now because my "expectations" are unattainable and unrealistic. I have the hardest time remembering that no one is perfect, including myself.
With all of this said, I have incredible friends, some who just may be the iron friends I'm in search of. I am impatient and most of the time unwilling to wait for friendships to form. I am glad that I've realized this and can begin to grow from this. I look forward to telling my friends how much the mean to me and how thankful I am for them.
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Sighing as I read your latest posts...wishing I was not the cause of some of your thoughts. I'm thankful for your forgiveness and grace. I can be a dull iron quite often.
It's a good thing the only perfect friend we have is Jesus so we don't start worshipping others!
Much love, mi amigo.
oh Ashley....you have such a good heart
Amen girlfriend....Amen! Thank you for your vulnerability in writing these things so close to your heart. I long to be so real with you as we walk this road together as friends...the Lord has so much in store for us. I'm your iron friend..and I know you are mine!
May we honor God by being each others iron!
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