Patience

Patience is a quality I long to embrace and enjoy.
I love that my husband is so very patient. I desire to follow his example.
I want to know answers, I want to know what to do, I want to know where to go...but I must wait.
Wait on you, wait on me, wait on the Lord. I am not good at the waiting game.
In my car, at home, in a store, with friends, with my husband...waiting.
I would think that I would be good at waiting by now, but I am not.
I do not wait well. I lack patience in a terrible way.
Selfishness, I want it my way, control. This is why patience is hard for me.
I so often care more about myself and what I want than others and what they want.
I sit in anticipation, stress building, wanting so badly to know...not yet.
Waiting for phone calls, emails, a knock at the door. Is anybody there? Are you going to tell me or not? What is your answer?
These are the times where I know God is refining me and showing me how consuming and ugly my sin really is.
Surely I can rest in my LORD, knowing that He knows all, He has planned all and He is perfect.
Why can't I always rest in this? He is...
So, again, I will wait...being refined with patience.