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soap-box:
Function: noun: an improvised platform used by a self-appointed, spontaneous, or informal orator; broadly : something that provides an outlet for delivering opinions.

Ah, my soapbox. You call it a blog. I call it sweet release. Here I sit, typing all of my thoughts, feelings and emotions into a little box. I hit publish and the whole world could see how I feel, what I'm thinking, where I want to go (and I REALLY want to go...).

So, here I go...
Some things that bother me right now:
-The fact that I have to step over a baby gate to get into the office. Not because I don't want a sweet baby to eat something, but because I don't want our insane dog to chew up the place.
-The fact that the world can have babies and people bring them meals to help them out, but my dad dies and I get nothing, no help.
-Depression, anger, fear, inability to articulate my emotions to the one person I want to know everything about me.
-The way people think talking about my dad is a no-no. It's like I have a disease.
-Over commiting myself (and I do this so easily).
-Fasting from Starbucks because I know I should, but loathing every second.

Some things that I like/love right now:
-Listening to my husband play random songs on the piano...ahhhhhhh.
-Taking naps on the couch, only to be woken up by my husband snuggling up beside me.
-Cool evenings, a cool breeze, and leaving our back door open to let it all in.
-Learning new things.
-Playing the place the state game online...you know you like it!
-The way Patrick warms up left overs and says, "Thanks honey, that was so good." Precious man.
-Dancing the Rumba with my husband around our house.

And now things that are hard for me:
-It is difficult for me to control tears.
-I am finding it quite difficult to speak with a filter anymore. Can't a girl just say what she wants?
-I go back and forth with leaving. Get me out now, let's stay a few more months, I want to leave yesterday, do we have to go?
-Trying to process my dad dying and all that entails. Who am I? Why did this happen? Will I ever be whole again?
-Leaving my very first home. It's so cute. Anyone want to come over before it's gone?!

Places I want to go:
-The Marriott that will give me a $100 gift certificate for the Memorial City Mall if I stay the night. I'll take it!
-Seattle, WA
-Maine...anywhere is fine. Does anyone else love New England like I do?
-Morgantown, WV
-"I wanna go back in tiiime." Back to the Future anyone?
-Somewhere cold with lots of snow. I would like this place to have a mountain to ski on and a resort to get a massage in.
-I want to go get a massage and a pedicure.

OK, thanks for reading. I think I'm done for tonight.