People Crisis

I just got back from "vacation". I spent 2 1/2 weeks with people. All the time, I was with people. Breakfast, lunch, dinner, after dinner. I didn't mind it. I loved seeing my friends and family. I just didn't manage my time well. Then again, how could I when there was such little time and so many people to see. Vacationing in your hometown...Not a super relaxing idea! Quality time with great friends and family...well, that overrides the "I need to relax on vacation" idea.

So, I had a wonderful time. It was hard being away from my husband, but I made it. I'm so thankful that there were people there for me in my time of loneliness. (how dramatic!) I love being around people. I would even consider myself a "people person". However, my time as a homemaker has changed me a bit. I enjoy having days to myself and in fact, it's refreshing for me to be alone sometimes. So it was quite a change of pace for me to be around 7 different people in a day.

This brings us to this week. I am anxiously awaiting Monday's arrival. Alone at last. I can clean, cook, read, work out...whatever I want. I have no one to meet and nothing too important to do. Finally! Oh wait, that's not how it went at all. When Monday came, I was a bit ant-sy. I cleaned, did laundry and went grocery shopping. That kept me busy. I was so excited for Patrick to get home...someone to talk to! Tuesday came with a bit more of a crisis. No one to hang out with? No "appointments"? No meal mates? How can this be? Thus entering my "people crisis". I was freaking out. What a strange feeling it was to want so badly to be with people, any people. Therefore, I went to Target. On Wednesday, I emailed a friend and she wanted to hang out...I jumped on the opportunity, got ready and headed out. Oh joy! A friend! Someone to talk to...do I sound pathetic to anyone yet? Thursday was better. I volunteered and there were people there. Plus, I knew I had Bunco to look forward to. There were guaranteed 11 other women there!

Either way, this has been a struggle for me this week. I want to be around people. Even if it's being at the mall or the grocery store, there are people there. Somehow that fills my need. But really, my need isn't people. My need is Jesus. I need to be satisfied with Him. And not too often do I have a "Jesus crisis", where I need to be around Him. Hum. I am sure my "people crisis" will wear off and I will enjoy alone time again. In fact, I'm sure it will come sooner than I think :) But when it does, I hope I don't forget that there is a real crisis in my heart. A crisis for Jesus, to know Him and love Him. So as my "people crisis" wears off, I pray that I will be filled with a "Jesus crisis"...that won't go away.