Has anyone else been down this road?

As most of you know, I can't have babies (easily). Patrick and I have been trying for two and a half years now to get pregnant. Lately, it's not been such an issue and the Lord has dealt beautifully with my heart as I go back and forth with my desire to be a momma. I've seen myself come from a consumed place where all I thought about and all I wanted was to be pregnant, to a place where having a child was the very last thing I wanted, to now, as I delight in knowing that if the Lord has children for us, they'll come in His timing.

Patrick and I have both struggles with the affects of infertility. However, neither of us (at this point) want to take this childless time for granted. We have been able to seek the Lord for a healthy, godly perspective and also enjoy the blessings of traveling and exploring without children. On the other hand, we have hard (but good) conversations about what it would be like to be parents, to adopt and how our lives will change.

Since moving to Indiana, we've had a hard time finding a good doctor and were, unfortunately, told to steer clear of doctors in Indiana. However, God has blessed us with some very encouraging people who've been through the same thing we're going through. They recommended doctors and such and it's been such a blessing. A friend even sent me some books that were helpful to her through her struggle with PCOS.

With all of that said, November will mark quite a new adventure for us and I want to drag you along. After MUCH prayer and conversation, Patrick and I have decided to see a infertility specialist. My pride screams, DON'T, while my heart whispers, It'll be okay. We (I) have an appointment with an incredible (as she came recommended) doctor in Pittsburgh at Magee Women's Hospital. This doctor is, like I said, a infertility specialist and we're going to talk to her about having babies.


I'm not sure what this road will look like, how long it will be or even, how hard it will be. I do know that Patrick and I are going through this together and more importantly, God knows best. His plans are best, His ways are best and He is faithful. With child, or without, Patrick and I are still satisfied in God alone. Sure, we would love to be parents and enjoy the blessings and burdens of raising children, but our lives will go on if we cannot conceive. God knows my body better than anyone else, so I trust that He alone will prepare me for whatever may come. What a joy to know that God knows my future!


Will you pray with me and for me as we embark on this adventure?