What a whirlwind these last couple of weeks have been. I'm trying desperately to recuperate from the insanity of our trip. There is just so much going through my mind, and my heart, right now.
This will be our first cross country move that isn't coupled with another huge life change. The first time around we got married. Move number two happened very shortly after my dad died. And now, third time is a charm...so they say.
I want to be mindful to grieve and mourn leaving the things here that I love. And my friends, I do love this place. I have deeper roots here than anywhere else and have grown and matured and learned here in ways that I haven't in other places (although this can be expected anywhere, I know). My time here in Indiana started off badly as I dealt with isolation, depression and loneliness. Moving and dealing with death alone was so hard, but so much has changed in just three and a half (short) years. Mainly, me.
Moving to OK will have it's challenges. My little boy will be one when we go and moving with kiddos, no matter the age, comes with difficulty and adjustment. Living in a larger city will be hard, at first. Not being able to walk everywhere or the ease of living in a small town will be strange. Before long, though, I'll love and appreciate the Super Target just a few minutes away and will deal with driving to the farmers market, rather than walking.
It's all about change. Embracing. Enjoying. Living without expectations. Just trusting the Lord in His sovereignty, in His wisdom, in His love. I'm praying that God will care for me tenderly and prepare me in beautiful ways as we pack and clean and gear up to leave Indiana, PA.