Our verse for this year is 1 Timothy 1:7 --
"For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power and love and sound mind."
(That's the NASB version, which is the one we chose to use for everything for VBS.)
I wasn't sure what God was doing when He called me to be apart of this team. And I wasn't sure how He would use this verse to teach me and challenge me and grow me over the last six months. I just knew He would.
I had my speculations -- of course. I figured that we would have another miscarriage and I would be working through trusting God's plan for us and not fearing that my desires would be on hold. I thought, perhaps, that something bad would happen and I would just have to trust and not fear if we lost everything/someone died/etc. My mind is an awful place sometimes, people.
But these last six months have proven that I'm so small and God is so big and gracious -- in all things. I have come to Him with fears of having a little girl and being so scared I will ruin her. I have come to my God with pregnancy anxiety, rather than miscarriage hurt. I have sought His face in sickness and while being lead into a season of deeper sacrifice and selflessness. I have called upon the Lord as a tornado hurled toward our home while Patrick was out of town. It's been so sweet to remember, constantly, that God has given me a spirit of power, love and sound mind/self-discipline -- He has given me HIS Spirit.
I love this so much.
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